the finger seen round the world (that's got me seeing red)

Got a quick question for anyone reading. How does one accidentally give the middle finger to someone else. I always thought a middle finger was something that was meant to be given. I know I've never given it "accidentally".

The player, one Andrew Ference, gave this one fingered salute to the Montreal Crowd tonight, after scoring. Celebrate if you must, after a goal. Nothing wrong with that at all. But it is my honest opinion that gestures such as these do not belong in hockey. 

It was put to me that if it was Montreal who did this to Boston fans, I would be alright with it. Not the case whatsoever. I think rude and obscene gestures do not belong in the NHL, and it doesn't matter one bit who does it, rival or otherwise. It's just wrong. And just because I may say something obscene or offensive does not mean that I condone the use of such conduct in the league.

Said player said "It looks awful, and I apologize. It's not who I am." Also says that he accidentally gave the finger to the crowd when making a fist. Y'know Mr. Ference, as much as I want to believe that, I cannot. I do not believe for one second that you accidentally gave that middle finger to the Montreal faithful. You remind me of a little kid who thinks that saying sorry will make it all better. I hope the NHL punishes your sorry ass.

So I'll put the question out there once more. How is this an accident? Reflexes? Nah. This was no accident. This was intentional. Take a look and judge for yourselves:

ETA: They're now calling it an equipment issue? I wish the Bruins would stop making excuses!


ETA2: Ference was fined $2,500 by the NHL. Was it enough?


Let me know your responses, but here's some ideas:


Yes, it was enough.
No, should have had a suspension too.

Look out world, here I come (The whirlwind of graduation!)

So, today was my college graduation. The day started early, with Mom showing up around 10. Later, she picked up a hair dye, and dyed my hair for me. My roots were horrible, lol. She made an appointment to get my hair done, and this is a picture taken during the whole process:

As you can see, I was very excited about the whole day. From the dying of my hair, to the curling, to the dress. Everything. It was the most special that I had ever felt in such a long time! The dress fit me perfect, almost as if it was made for me!

First up was the ceremony! I arrived at the Events Centre a few minutes after 4, and started getting ready. I put my gown on, and then my hat! I had two of my instructors fussing over me! One was pinning my hat in place, while another pinned the sash. There were hugs all around in that room, and all of my classmates looked amazing!

I was so nervous as I had to lead my class out to our seats. We stood facing the audience, and then when the music stopped, we had to turn counter clockwise, and then sit in our seats. There were some messages from the campus admin, Maisie Caines, as well as some dignitaries, and then it was on with the presentation of certificates and diplomas!

I wasn't half as nervous as I thought I would be, walking across that stage. I shook with the hand I was supposed to, and then accepted the diploma with the left. Got hugs from both Ann and Maisie, and then flipped the tassle on my hat to the left side.Then we all sat down, and watched the rest of the ceremony!

Then, at the end of the ceremony, off went the hats!

After the ceremony we all went and took off our gowns, and then gave Sylvia, our main instructor, a gift. Sylvia went above and beyond the description of her job more times than I can count. and was always on my side, giving me that extra push that I always needed. I wouldn't have graduated today without her!

After that was all done, I had some pictures taken. Flowers were wicked expensive, so I never got any, but the lady selling them let me use them in some pictures. This is one Mom took:

Then we went and saw my Nan for a few minutes, where more pictures were taken. I think she was very proud! Next was the reception, and supper, which was delicious. Here I am waiting for said supper:

When the reception was all done, there were more pictures. I got one with Sylvia, that I will have to upload when I get a cord for my camera, and also a couple with all my classmates. Those look great on my camera, can't wait to share them! Also got one with my friend Dianne. I plan to do something special with that one!

And finally, here's one of me just before I left to go home for the evening!

All in all, it was the best day of my life so far! Thanks for all the congratulations and compliments on my Twitter and Facebook pages. Sure makes a girl feel loved.

Dan Pearce (Single Dad Laughing) is right

I don't know if any of you know, but I follow a blog called Single Dad Laughing, run by Dan Pearce. I think the man is a genius, and I love reading what he has to say. And today's post was no different.

Today's topic was "Worthless Teenagers and the Parents who Make Them'.

The post was a result of teenagers struggling, hurting, lacking in confidence. And all because of their parents. This young girl's letter made me cry. Same for Dan. How could parents treat their child the way they did, and say the things that they said? It doesn't make sense to me, not one bit.

He mentioned all the misconceptions about teenagers. Teens think those things, and more often than not it is because at some point in their lives, they have been told by an adult in their life that they were worthless, useless, stupid, a mistake, etc. And most people, when they are told enough that they are something they are not, they start to believe it. I know, because its happened to me several times in my life. It was never my parents, luckily, as I'm lucky to have the parents I do.

Dan, if you see this, thank you. You are wise. Far, far, FAR, beyond your 30 years.

help, please

If anybody reading this knows somebody musical, or is indeed musical themselves, I'd love some help putting music to some of the lyrics I've wrote. Thanks.

Up 2-0 and Feeling Good.

So, game 2 went last night in Beantown between the visiting Montreal Canadiens, and the home team Boston Bruins. This was an important game for the Bruins as they needed to win, and avoid going down 2-0 in the series, heading back to Montreal.

Shortly after taking the pre-game skate, it was announced that the Bruins Captain (also their best defenceman) would not be playing in the game due to dehydration. He was dizzy, and didn't feel well, and ended up being scratched and had to sit out the game.And it didn't take long for the Habs long to take advantage of the hole left by Chara.

Just 43 seconds into the game, Mike Cammalleri, one of the hotter players for the Habs in last years miraculous playoff run, which lead then just a couple games shy of the big dance, put a goal past Tim Thomas. 1-0 Habs.

Then at 2:20 of the same period, Mathieu Darche scored just 6 seconds into the Habs PP, to put his team up   2-0, and with Carey Price playing the way he is, a 2 goal lead is more than enough for him to win it.

The Bruins would finally solve Price later that period, and cut the score to 2-1, but before too long, Yannick Weber, who was inserted into the lineup due to Andrei Kostitsyn's injury, would restore the Habs two goal lead. Weber certainly made the most of this opportunity to play.

The Bruins are going to need to dig deep if they stand any chance in coming back in the series, but this writer seriously doubts that the Bruins are going to be able to win 2 of 3 at the Bell Centre. MTL leads the best of 7 series 2-0.

MTL Stand Up, Annakin Slayd

Montreal for life, Les Canadiens forever!

Fragile, Handle With Care

Fragle, Handle with Care

I feel my heart should be wearing a sign, “Fragile handle with care.”

I feel like you could care less how I feel, If I fall, will you even be there?

If my fragile heart breaks like glass, will your ignorant soul be aware?

If I stumble and fall into pieces, scattered all over the ground,

Will you know that I have been hurting, when you choose to never come 'round?

Don't you know how much the silence hurts, when for miles around there's no sound?

I feel like a glass about to shatter

I feel like my fragile heart's about to break

I don't know how much more I can handle

I don't know how much more I can take

The cracks are already showing

Whether or not you're aware

So just heed this one little warning,

So be careful baby, handle with care

I know that you cared for me one time, but that was a long time ago

I put my fragile heart in your hands and I never wanted you to let go

But now that person I thought I knew has turned as ice cold as snow

Chorus

Fragile, handle with care, it's a sign I wish you could see

I don't need my heart to be broken

The cracks are showing, that's very evident to me

Maybe its time for me to pack up, get out while I still can

It's time for this long lost ship to finally find some safe land

I need to find someone new, an understanding man

Who will take care of this fragile heart, hold it safely in his hands

Chorus

I won't make the same mistake twice

I don't want another guy like you

This time I'm going to find someone

Who will make all of my dreams come true

Someone I know will be there.

He'll be more careful than you were,

He'll handle this fragile heart with care

Cuddles, the Habs loving cat!

Just wanted to share this picture!

Montreal for life, les Canadiens forever!

Fuck, that was a nailbiter, but the Habs won it, 2-0! Brian Gionta proved why he is the Captain, and Carey was amazing! I don't know about you fellow Habs fans, but I think if our boys keep playing like this, we might see Lord Stanley come June! Are you feeling and believing #25? Lets win it all for Max Pacioretty!

You three stars were:

3: Tomas Plekanec

2: Brian Gionta, the Captain

and your #1?

Carey Price <3 with a shutout!

Go Habs Go!

You diss my Habs, the red, blue and white
I understand you're jealous, that's quite alright
One of the best teams in NHL history
The last Canadian team to win it, back in '93
I know its been almost 18 long years,
But the cup is ours in 2011, no fear
People mock us, they think we're crazy
But let them laugh, we'll have our day
When we win the cup, we'll be in heaven
Let's win it all for #67!

Go Habs Go!

The Joys and Pains of Facebook

For the most part, I like Facebook, I really do. I can keep in touch with friends, play games, celebrate my GBS fandom, etc. I've made many close friends through Facebook, some who are now more like family. For the most part, Facebook is useful, and I like to be on it, but sometimes there are times it frustrates me to the point where I just want to say to hell with it, and quit the whole damn thing!

Today is one of those mornings. I tried posting pictures, and at first they showed up, but now I can't see them. I would understand if there was something offensive about them, as was the case once, but there is nothing offensive about these pictures whatsoever. I'll attach them at the end of this post, and you can all judge for yourself.

And then there are comments that are disappearing. I get a notification that someone has commented on one of my photos, or on one of my status', but then when I click on said notification to see what was said, nothing was there. It's as if Facebook is eating my comments, hiding things that were written, and I've just about had it. I'm not in the mood for it's bullshit today.

And if all that wasn't bad enough, it won't let me changed my damned profile picture. God, I really feel like screaming right now. If this problem soon doesn't fix itself, I might just lose it!

Here are the pictures.

ETA: It's working again, for now.

wondering

Sitting here wondering just what I did wrong?
We haven't talked in forever, to me it feels that long
I feel confused, can't make any sense of this
Was it something I did or something I said?
To be honest I'm hurting, I can't shake this fear
I feel sad and hurt, my feelings take me there
So if I did something wrong, tell me what I have to do
What do I have to do to start this friendship anew?

The Seal Hunt. Get Your Facts Straight.

Oooh, I'm in the mood for a rant. A really good rant. There are things that piss me off, and people attacking a way of life in my home province is one of them. Especially when some of them are as far removed from the actual activity as can possibly be. They just support these organizations, such as PETA, who really have no clue whatsoever, what they are talking about. 

Myth # 1: We kill baby seals

Not true at all. What the sealers actually go after are the older harp seals, not the baby ones. No matter what PETA thinks, Newfoundlanders are not barbaric, and would not kill baby animals. Not even we would stoop that low.

Myth # 2: We club the seals to death, and let them suffer

This is just simply not true at all. In fact, when a seal is killed, it is shot, not clubbed. Instant death. We do not make the seals suffer, as most Americans who believe in PETA, are lead to believe. 

What really bothers me is that these people do not get that this is a part of the economy here. There are people who rely on the seal hunt to feed their families, and put clothes on their backs. I don't believe in animal cruelty, not in the least, but how would you feel if someone you didn't even know told you that you couldn't do what you had to, what you needed to do, to take care of your family. Imagine being told that you were wrong for doing it, that you were cruel, barbaric, and what you did needed to stop. What if it was the only way you knew that you would get through the winter, with the money you made from this job? How would you feel, think about it.

I don't expect PETA or other organizations like them to stop campaigning against the seal hunt. In fact, it is foolish to expect such a thing. But for as long as there will be people like them misconstruing the facts, there will be many Newfoundlanders, and others that know the facts, that will be there to tell them different. 

Even if won't shut them up.

Grad & The Waiting Game

So, last night I'm lying in bed, playing around on Facebook when I get a message from one of my former instructors at school. She said that she was talking to another lady who works at the school, who handles the work terms, and graduation, and she said that I would still be able to graduate with my classmates, and participate in the ceremony the same as everyone else. Well, for the rest of the night, you couldn't wipe the smile off of my face!

I immediately went in search of a hairstyle for graduation (photo #1), and it didn't take me long to figure out which one I was going to go with. As soon as I saw it, I knew that it would be perfect, and that the cap that I have to wear at Grad won't mess it up.

And with my hair being way down past my shoulders (see photo #2), the style should work perfectly!

But before I can focus on any of that, I need to find out how much tickets are going to cost. I found out from the aforementioned instructor that we are allowed to have three, so that made my decision an easy one on who to invite. Mom, Dad, and Rob. No question. I had it figured out last night that those would be the three I would invite if it came down to it!

So, hopefully soon, Tracy will be out of her meeting, and I can speak to her about these important details. Oh yeah, and setting up that all important work term.

More later.

news about a bad back and surgery

As first reported through his blog at greatbigsea.com, Alan Doyle is going under the knife, for repairs to his back. You can read the post here. I hope you'll all join me in wishing him a speedy recovery!

Doubts

Doubts

I think I'm fine,then you open your mouth

Can't you see that you're someone I could do without?

I'll be having a good day,and then something you say or do

It winds up hurting me,and leaves me with all these doubts

I could go for days,for weeks, and even months

But when you put these doubts in my head

I know that time is not enough

To heal all the hurt, these wounds that reappear

All the confidence that I built up,it quickly disappears

And all that it turns into are these intense doubts and fears

Doubt, such a small little word

Doubt, doesn't have to be said to be heard

Doubt, it fills my mind right now

Doubt, I have to get rid of it somehow

There are times when I really think I'm fine

Then the words you said, they start to fill my mind

I think I'm pretty, I hear you say I'm not

And then it feels like my confidence has been beaten to a snot

I get a compliment and blush, it can't possibly be true

I have so many doubts, and they're there because of you

When I'm told I'm smart, I only feel dumb

I can't stop the pain that it brings forth, I feel anything but numb

I can't stop the doubts from coming, I can't help but feel the pain

I want these doubts to disappear, I wanna be happy once again

I was happy before I met you, I believed in me

I believed in the person that I wanted to be

Then I met you and it wasn't long before that changed

But I don't want to be the person you made me

I want to be happy once again

I want to get rid of these doubts that you put in my head

So get out of my heart, and get out of my bed

You're not welcome here anymore, I'm taking back my life

I have to do what's best for me, I have to do what's right

I have to get these doubts right out of my mind

Doubt, such a small little word

Doubt, doesn't have to be said to be heard

Doubt, it fills my mind right now

Doubt, such a small little word

Doubt, doesn't have to be said to be heard

Doubt, it fills my mind right now

Doubt, I have to get rid of it somehow

Yeah doubt, it's such a small little word

But I'm not going to listen to it, it's not going to be heard

Doubt, no longer fills my mind right now

Cause you're outta my life hun, take your final bow

Johnny Reid~Hands Of A Working Man

This is a live performance of 'Hands of a Working Man'. It's got the intro and explanation of his inspiration for the song. Enjoy.

Naturally

I can see it written on your face, 
I know how you feel about me
You try to hide your feelings
But they're something I can see
You say that we're just friends
And that's the way it needs to stay
But the attraction that we have for each other
I can feel it growing stronger every day


The shy smiles that we give each other
They put our true feelings in words
But how will we know how we truly feel
When what we say is never heard?
We've known it from the moment we met
That you and I, we were meant to be
So why are we fighting something
That to us should come so naturally?


From the moment you first looked my way,
I knew that my heart was lost forever,
I smiled back, and then I realized
That we were meant to be together
We hit it off from that first day
When my path, it first crossed with yours
But we're still only friends, and I wonder
If we're ever gonna walk through that door?


The shy smiles that we give each other

They put our true feelings in words

But how will we know how we truly feel

When what we say is never heard?

We've known it from the moment we met

That you and I, we were meant to be

So why are we fighting something

That to us should come so naturally?

You know that we belong together

I'm sure you feel that pull, just like me

We were meant to be together darlin'

That's the way that things were meant to be

Your eyes, they tell me differently

Than the words that your mouth speaks

So baby why are we fighting something

That's so much bigger than you and me?

The shy smiles that we give each other

They put our true feelings in words

But how will we know how we truly feel

When what we say is never heard?

We've known it from the moment we met

That you and I, we were meant to be

So why are we fighting something

That to us should come so naturally?

These shy smiles that we give each other 

They're putting our true feelings in words

Maybe it's time for us to be speaking

The words that have not yet been heard

We've known it from the moment we met

That you and I. we were meant to be

So why do we fight this thing darlin',

Something that should come so naturally

Cause the feelings that we feel for each other

Is just something that comes naturally

...not gonna take it anymore...

It's one of those days. I feel like if someone looks at me the wrong way, or says the wrong thing, I might just lose it on them. In fact, it has happened twice so far today, and its not even 1 in the afternoon!

First, I wake up, and mother nature has fucked me over again, which set me off. I got asked a question that just rubbed me the wrong way, and I snapped. Wasn't mad at the person who asked it, but when I'm moody, shit like that doesn't matter all that much. I lost it.

Then I see a poll, asking if God is real. I lost it again. I know not all people are believers, but again, this just rubbed me the wrong way. I don't claim to be religious or anything, but I do have my beliefs, and my faith. And I was raised believing in God and Heaven, and that there is a Devil and Hell. I'm sure I've done some things that He wouldn't approve of, but mostly, I choose to believe that the positive things I've done in this life far outweigh the negative.

If God weren't real, I would not be writing this post right now. There are many times I have been near death, but I did not die. And that is God's doing, plain and simple. I could have died when I was five, from bladder reflux, but I didn't. I could have died when I almost drowned, but between God and that lifeguard, I'm still here. And then there was my own attempt to take my own life, but as you can all see, I am still here.

Yes there is a God. At least that's what I choose to believe.